A novel in diary form · inspired by real events

Diary of a Narc

Twenty-five years of notebooks. One voice. No apologies.

She wrote it all down. The men. The money. The plan. She was sorry. She wasn’t sorry.

At twenty she promised her journal she would never be ashamed of anything she put in it. She kept that promise through college, the Air Force, a marriage, a divorce and a son. She was funny, furious, and very, very good at making people believe her. This is the story in her pages, in her words, from the first entry to the last.

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From the pages

NOVEMBER 2, 2004

This is my journal - of thoughts, deeds, actions, words, feelings, glimpses, inspirations, etc. All of my soul will be placed in this book. I will not be ashamed of anything I write down, because there is nothing I have done to deserve the title of shame.

DECEMBER 2003

I need other friends. Ones I can hang out with. That might not be as hard as I make it out to be. Be social? Me? I guess I should try it. My smiles don't really come unbidden; I think I should and then I do.

NOVEMBER 26, 2017

I don't want to be around him much anymore. I don't hate him. I don't really feel anything about him. He's like a really good appliance. You don't love the dishwasher, you just like that it works & stays in the kitchen. Did I? Maybe a little. 30%.

About the book

Diary of a Narc is told entirely through dated entries, from a lonely high-school girl in the desert to a woman running a family business, a custody war and a long con on the man who loved her. The early notebooks are raw and searching. The later ones are something colder.

About 49,000 words · about 110 pages in print. Ebook and paperback coming soon.

Content warning: strong language, sexual content, self-harm and suicidal thoughts, abuse, child neglect, drug use, racist remarks by the narrator. This is a work of fiction inspired by real events. Names, places and details have been changed; any resemblance to actual persons is coincidental.

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One entry at a time, on YouTube.

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